Conversations with Debbie Rosas
Monday, August 6, 2007
Time to Be with Me
I am a woman who loves being alone, and yet I find myself surrounded by people. I have always wondered if I was twin, separated at birth I seek closeness-Close To My Skin! My work outs me in front of and next to many people, everyday. I therefore am responsible for finding moments of alone time. I am getting more than ever as Jeff my husband is on a healing journey. His body demanding rest, he must heal, or I will lose him way before I am ready. The baseball bat is by the side of the bed. No-I do not feel safer. But I look at the bat and am reminded how safe I feel with Jeff next to me. By my side. I love how he makes me feel softer. It is easy for me take off my man-pants in his presence. Alone, the man pants are on, and yet I am more aware than ever of me-the woman, the feminine. Alone I feel me, am in my flow, and can ponder my existence, now and for the future. So I dream. I dream of Jeff well, him coming back to the business and working with me and us, building our lives. Home alone, I get to prepare the house for his return. I get to prepare my body and soul. I get to miss him. Long, wish, and dream. It is a good thing this feeling body. Alone and yet connected, we are all one. Do you feel me? I feel you-Close to my skin!